From Twitter 08-07-2010

• 10:08:03: Why do *all* of my muscles hurt? All I did was clean yesterday.
  
• 10:08:36: @octoberaine Yay! We do miss you though. <3
  
• 10:09:47: Also, I need coffee. @rubyruy, do you need coffee? I think you need coffee.
  
• 10:32:13: Note to @rubyruy: Stop humming Johnny Cash.
  
• 10:34:21: @rubyruy Alright. Where's your spiel?
  
• 10:34:54: God, it's like I'm two people. Two people that want to have coffee VERY BADLY --> @rubyruy
  
• 10:55:28: @windandthestars Yeah, GIMP is kind of...gimpy.
  
• 11:14:57: @liliofthevaley She'll probably require that you take her home with her, too. Just watch her make the cat-shaped hole in your suitcase.
  
• 11:55:46: Free-floating anxiety, paranoia, free-floating paranoia, anxiety. I HATE MY BRAIN.
  
• 11:56:55: @windandthestars is eating a bag of...popcorn. HEALTHY BREAKFAST THERE, LISA! :D :D :D
  
• 11:59:55: RDA tweets like my Dad would if he had a Twitter. That's just creepy.
  
• 12:00:44: Hmm, I wonder if my Dad should get a Twitter. I think it could be entertaining. Run this idea by him, Mom.
  
• 12:01:05: An idea that needs to happen.
  
• 14:34:27: @politicsREspun What's this "umbrella" you speak of? You mean you don't just walk around getting your hair wet? Weeeeeird.
  
• 14:35:03: Walking without a cane: Well, I managed a whole 4 months.
  
• 14:35:22: Walking with a cane: At least people have stopped glaring at me on buses.
  
• 14:45:48: Dinner/lunch with mother-in-law tomorrow. Hooray.
  
• 14:55:51: Hearing RyRo sing brings tears to my eyes.
  
• 14:56:01: Touches my heart.
  
• 14:56:18: But also reminds me of a time I'll never have again.
  
• 14:57:32: Sanity. Friendship without anxiety.
  
• 14:57:38: A foot that didn't hurt.
  
• 15:00:11: You know, I remember when I could get up each day without being paranoid that I'm being talked about behind my back. That people hate me.
  
• 15:01:43: I mean, I get it, I'm not perfect. But nobody else is either.
  
• 15:01:57: God, is my psychiatrist going to have a lot to work through.
  
• 15:02:41: I didn't know I was going to fall apart in the span of three weeks.
  
• 15:02:50: Like, completely.
  
• 15:02:56: I started off okay.
  
• 15:03:23: How am I ever going to make my way back from this?
  
• 15:05:11: How do I even begin putting myself back together?
  
• 18:33:46: I have napped. Because emotional outbursts (like crying) make me tired, apparently.
  
• 18:37:07: I *will* glue myself back together. But it will take a metric fuckton of glue, and Strawberry Crush.
  
• 18:38:04: Ow, my foot. All I did was sleep.
  
• 19:55:44: RT @liliofthevaley: Eating foooooood, real food, risotto and fish cooked by Ruy. OMG Epic. <3
  
• 19:56:43: @windandthestars *hands you a disjointed foot* I love you so much. <3 <3 <3 <3
  
• 20:03:22: Aw. I miss you, Claire Kincaid. *sniffle* <3 #lawandorder
  
• 21:40:41: @windandthestars At this time of night? On a Saturday? Blasphemy. ;-)
  
• 22:30:33: @windandthestars Well, *now* it's in the same sentence.
  
• 22:48:22: I KNOW, RIGHT?
  
• 23:09:42: I've seen your flag on the marble arch. Love is not a victory march. It's a cold and it's a broken hallelujah. #musicalcheesecake
  
• 23:12:22: And so I know what's it's like to feel lonely among people. Again.
  
• 23:13:03: Whatever happened to me the moment #TSE ended, it's made me entirely unable to enmesh myself into a group of people again.
  
• 23:17:05: Though I'm genuinely surprised I was ever able to in the first place.
  
• 23:18:43: But you know what the problem is? You *do* get left behind. Painfully.
  
• 23:20:22: And if you can't handle that? Woe betide thou.
  
• 23:21:55: You get forgotten, and you get left out, and you wonder when all of this started to matter again.
  
• 23:23:15: This isn't high school. This is real life.
  
• 23:23:53: And if I can't hack being social in real life, what will I ever become?
  
• 23:24:21: Other than someone who starts shit when the pain becomes too much to bear?
  
• 23:28:22: All the guilt, all the pain, all the anxiety...
  
• 23:28:46: When everyone remembers the good times, I'll still be dealing with the emotional fallout of the bad.
  
• 23:31:22: Man, would I love to get out of this negative spiral. But all I do is get caught in the mire.
  
• 23:31:50: Looking for the goddamn light of day. Because it's up there, and I'll find it. But damn if it isn't hard.
  
• 23:49:23: *cries* *for the 49000th time this week*
  

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